Saturday, October 26, 2013

October 26, 2013

     Good morning. Last night was a good night here, my husband carved the pumpkin he grew in the garden. The pumpkin is rather large and it has the thickest walls I have every seen. The three of us set around the kitchen table and laughed and talked. Mom seemed to be having a particularly good time she kept saying things like, "I am so glad you two are here." and "I love you guys." She made fun of my husband and laughed and talked more than I have seen her do in a while. The jack-o-lantern turned out good. I think the pumpkin should have matured on the vine a little longer, its not uniformly orange, but the frost made that decision. So I set and picked out all the seeds and with the pumpkin being so large the seeds were huge and a lot of them. This was the first time as an adult that I ever roasted pumpkin seeds and for some reason they didn't turn out like I thought they should. My husband didn't like them at all, I think it was the first time he had ever tried them so I wish they would have tasted better. But I think with the pumpkin being slightly immature the seeds were not as mature as should have been either. 
      So as I said the other day the living room heating stove has not been working right. Though it is working ok right now, I still don't trust it. My husband has went to the store to buy us a new one, hopefully it will work and take care of any of my concerns. I still think the old stove works just not with the amount of pressure that is in the gas line. So if anyone needs a heating stove I will have one to sell, I am not responsible for any accidents that happen if you use it. We just bought it last fall, it is still fairly new and has not been used much.
     I have to go get this day started. Have a good day.

                                                             April Whitehair

Friday, October 25, 2013

October 25, 2013

     Good morning. Well we got a hard frost last night, hard enough to take down the pumpkin vines. Not sure how the birdhouse gourds fared, I will go check them out later today.
     My husband comes home today! I miss him so much. Only two more weeks left of him working out of town then he is home for good. But before he gets home today I need to get this house cleaned up. But Mom doesn't help this goal at all. She is currently in the bathroom pulling things out of dresser drawers and dumping her jewelry boxes. She doesn't listen when I ask her to stop and she gets angry and yells, so I have decided, at least for now, I would just let her do what ever she wants and clean up the mess later.
     I have found some very interesting shows on you tube. I have been watching shows about experiments where they send people to live like they were in the 1800's. Learning the farming and cooking aspects of their life is very interesting to me. Also interesting was watching the children ages from 4 to 16. They came into this experiment not wanting to do it and missing the video games and computers and phones and friends and came away completely changed, matured people. Once they returned home they were so bored with the norm. This may be some of the reason why teen pregnancy and teen drug use is so rampant, put a shovel in their hands and cows to milk and they wont be bored enough to try and find things to do...
     I have lots to get done in a short time. Have a good day.

                                                          April Whitehair

Thursday, October 24, 2013

October 24, 2013

     Good morning. Mom slept great last night. Me on the other hand woke up extremely early with a headache, went back to sleep then woke up to a cramp in my calf but with the headache gone. Hopefully this isn't how my day will go. Mom may have slept well but she wouldn't spit out her gum when she went to bed and woke up with it all over her. I have definitely learned a lesson, no more gum for Mom, ever! 
     We got some bad news yesterday evening about one of Mom's brothers. He has been battling cancer for a while and now he has gotten to the point where he has maybe a couple days left. There is so many thoughts and feelings around this. Mom, with her Alzheimer's, isn't able to deal with the news. I have chose not to tell her, whether this is the right decision or not I am not completely sure. Her reaction to this news would be deep sadness, understandably, she would either focus on this repeatedly to the point of distress or completely forget that I told her and I would have to explain it to her again later. Either way it will not change the inevitable. Now in regards to my sisters and me this is a particular difficult situation, of course no where near as difficult as it would be to his sons, but we do know from experience what they are going through. We watched our Dad die slowly and painfully from cancer ten years ago. Though each of us would like to go spend time with him during his final days we are mentally and emotionally so not wanting to bring up those memories. It is a very hard thing for loved ones to watch a strong, super hero type man suffer so. Though it my be selfish, our avoidance of directly dealing with the issue at hand is purely out of self-preservation. Our thoughts, prayers, and tears go out to our Uncle and all the family. Thank you so much to those who are standing by him during his greatest time of need. We love you all. I must add here a sort of a disclaimer that I have not spoke to any of my sisters about what I have wrote in this post, for all I know they may have decided to go see him last night and none of what I said pertains to any of them except for me. I may have projected my own thoughts and emotions on to them. Though I must say that there was about a thirty minute discussion between my sister A and myself last night where we were going to go visit him, I actually got dressed to go, but both decided against it. Purely speaking for myself, I didn't want to go because I feel these last days should be reserved for his immediate family and those who have been at his side every day when he needed them the most. He should not be treated as if he is on display for the curious to see his suffering.
     With all that said I must go. Mom is needing me.

                                                               April Whitehair 

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

October 23, 2013

     Good morning. Wow Mom is very off this morning. She won't get dressed, she is very argumentative, broke Dad's picture frame, wants to call her Mom and Dad, and is just all around crabby. Also she says I am not her daughter and to not call her Mom anymore. I really try to be kind and patient but sometimes she just hits a nerve and I have to walk away and come back in a better frame of mind.
     My sister M came down yesterday and gave me a much needed break. My mission was to find blue jean skirts for this winter. The consignment shop that I was going to go to was no longer in business, at least not where I thought it was. I found a long blue jean skirt at Good Will, it is a little tight but I bought it anyway. I will use it as encouragement to loose weight. I went to Kmart and Walmart and looked but neither place had one. Actually Walmart had a short blue jean skirt, why are they selling short skirts in the fall? At least I got to get out of the house for a while and that is all I really wanted to do.
     I need to go see what I can do for Mom. Have a good day.

                                                April Whitehair

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

October 22, 2013

     Good morning. I am so sleepy this morning. Mom is already up and driving me crazy. I so hope that my sister M shows up today so I can get out. Not to sure what I am going to do, I might go look for some blue jean skirts for winter. I seem to be having trouble finding them anywhere.
     It is a rainy yucky day. It has been so cold that we have to keep the fire lit for Mom. She is always so cold. The heating stove in the living room doesn't work correctly so I am to afraid to use it. The gas pipe under the house needs changed, I think. That may be a project I get my husband to do when he is home from working out of town.
     I haven't been able to get back on the hill to cut down more trees. I am unable to do it while I am home alone with Mom. Hopefully this weekend when my husband is home I will be able to get up there and get something done.
     The pumpkins and gourds fared well with the light frost the other night. I looked it up and the pumpkins will be ok and the gourds, well some people just leave them out all winter to cure. But I really don't think mine were done growing so they probably won't make it. I will try to grow them again next year but plant them much sooner.
     I need to go. Have a good day.

                                          April Whitehair

Monday, October 21, 2013

October 21, 2013

     Good morning. Well it is Monday and my husband has left again to go out of town for work. He has been gone for three weeks and has three more weeks to go. Today he will have to be pepper sprayed, actually I think it is called something else, for training for his job. He is so not looking forward to having that done but I believe he went through something similar when he was in the Navy. I will be worried about him all day and hope he survives.
     Yesterday my sister A came down and spent time with Mom so I could go to church. I hadn't been to church since Mom broke her hip almost two months ago. It was so nice to get to fellowship and hear a good sermon. I love going to church. It puts me in a better frame of mind and kind of lets me put my life in context. Though my church may be small the love felt is great.
     So it frosted last night. I am not sure how that will effect the pumpkins and gourds still on the vine. When it warms up some I will go out and check on them. I need to do some research on what to do with the gourds. I hope the frost did not hurt them.
     I have so much cleaning to do. I don't do much house work when my husband is home on the weekends. Plus I try not to do much on Sundays, only the things I absolutely have to do to provide care for Mom. With all the dishes and laundry stacked up waiting on me I will have a busy day.
     Have a good day.

                                                                 April Whitehair

Saturday, October 19, 2013

October 19, 2013

     Good morning. Some how I am awake before everyone else in the house this morning even though I was woke up several times by Mom last night. I really need to talk to her doctor about getting her a sleeping pill. I honestly wouldn't mind her waking me up if she needed something but when she wakes me up to say "I want to go home." or "When are they going to be here?" it drives me crazy.
     My husband came home yesterday. I love having him here with us. I love being able to go to him with my thoughts, concerns, and issues. He is good to talk to. Some how he knows the difference between, "Man, she is driving me crazy!" and "Man, she is driving me crazy!" Looks the same but he can tell when I mean I need two minutes, you go deal with her, or I just want to vent.
     Mom's UTI is getting better, at least she is showing signs of getting better. I am so glad because they had said it this antibiotic didn't work she would need IV antibiotics. Which would mean spending time in the hospital and we definitely didn't want that.
     Even though it is getting to be late October I do still have a few things going on in the garden. My husband has a very nice sized pumpkin and a couple small ones still growing on the vine. And my bird house gourd plants are still producing baby gourds. There are two gourds that are nice sized ones. I just hope the frost will hold off till the get a little bigger. Next year I will have to plant these much earlier than I did this year.
     I need to go. Everyone is starting to wake up and I will be expected to do something other than look at this screen. Have a good day.

                                                             April Whitehair